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Georgia Aint Got Shit On Me...

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 21:46:06 GMT

Well...I just got back from my dreadful Georgia history class. I got a paper and my MID-TERM (ya know, the one that caused me to drink...a lot...last Thursday). Well, I'm glad to say that I got a 100 on my paper and a 95 on my mid-term!! Yes...a fuckin NINETY-FIVE...I DO believe that's an "A". These Georgia folks aint got shit on me!! So yea...that made me pretty damn happy and very relieved!

Hmm...anyways...back to everything else. The other night, Erica and Tywaun got into a HUGE fight...like she came in here at 5am and because I was basically writing Shannon's paper for her Civilization class, I was still awake. She came in here telling me all this shit, making me not like him even more..and saying that she wanted to break up with him and stuff...But then last night, I think they talked about everything. I'm not 100% sure how that went though because Erica's been out running erands all day so I haven't talked to her...Hopefully that will end soon though. Oh well..come May (2 months from now!), he'll be gone...but so will she :-/

Let's see what else...My dad is supposed to be coming to visit me on Friday -- mainly because my sorority is having a Parent's Day thing on Saturday and I told him it would be very traumatizing if I was the only one without a parent there. Then, the plan is for him to stay til Monday (which is also my birthday), and then the both of us will drive down to Florida. But because this is my father, I really won't be able to believe that he is coming until I see him here. In that case, I'll be flying down to Florida on Wednesday. Either way, I'm down there til March 15th...

Also, Caitlyn informed me that there is going to be a "Probation/Birthday" Party at Club 7105 on Saturday night. A majority of the girls in my sorority are on probation for grades, missing mandatory events, money...the list goes on and on...and well, just about all the girls that I hang out with from it are on it, so we decided that since we technically aren't allowed to participate in AST socials, we're going to make our own. And well...my birthday is on the 6th, so we're going to be celebrating that too. My dad's gonna be like WTF if he comes up here and has to sit through a buncha sorority girls getting they're drink on! Actually, it's my father, so he'll more than likely be the first one with a drink in his hand!

One more thing...lately, it's come to my attention that you really can learn a lot about people by the choices they make and the things they do. You realize who was meant to be a part of your life, and who wasn't. Although it may bother you at first, you get over it -- actually much quicker than expected due to the other person's actions. Right now, I have an amazing relationship with my family -- getting along with all of them, yes, even DALE! They seriously are amazing and I KNOW that no matter what, they'll be there. Also, the friends that I have right now, are the truest ones ever. I've eliminated those who really weren't what I was looking for in a friend, and I'm actually opening up and becoming much closer to some new people. Honestly, I'm just really happy right now...and I have those in my life to thank for it.

Washing my hands...

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 14:16:59 GMT

Alright, so as I probably told plenty of people last night in my drunken state of mind, I was pissed...

I'm completely over it now though because there is no reason I should let someone that's not even a part of my life bother me. From this point on, I'm washing my hands of you. Your name means nothing to me...You mean nothing to me. If you want to continue focusing on me, that's fine, but I refuse to give you the satisfaction of doing the same.

On a different note...yesterday was interesting. Ya know, started drinking at 4PM and didn't stop til I passed out around 1AM. I'm telling ya...those Georgia History exams can do that to a girl. Indigo stopped by. I don't really remember what we talked about -- I think it was something along the lines of the New Member Retreat and stuff like that. Later on, Erica and some other people joined me in drinking so I didn't have to do it alone and look/seem like an alcoholic...so the night only got better. When Shannon got off work, she brought me Subway <333 I love her. She also tried to make me write a paper for her though. I'm not too sure what she was thinking...I could barely even talk, let alone write a paper on Charlemagne??? Then this morning, I woke up with my Paris Hilton book next to me? I'm not exactly sure how that happened, because I'm almost positive I wasn't trying to read last night. I think I was looking at it with Erica, and passed out? It's kinda hard to say.

I'm sorry if you got drunken IM's, phone calls, or texts. They don't call me "Captain Drunk Dialer Morgan" for nothin!! Hahaha...

Oh...and I love Laur with her softball bats <333 Nothin better...

PS...When the hell did Prince come back out??

I LOVE ugly people who talk shit..

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 22:03:28 GMT

Hmm...so I survived yet another semester of mid-terms. It sucked, but I guess it'll all be worth it in the end. I plan on just having a good time this weekend, and not worrying about anything...starting right now.

Quite frankly, I feel very childish to "finish" things on LJ. But since that's the way certain people seem to address things, I'll respond to them. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE ugly people who run their mouths...especially when they know I'm over 700 miles away and can't do anything about it. But ya know what, do what you want. I seriously wouldn't be talking shit about appearances when people get nauseous, literally throw up in their mouths, every time they look at you. But its cool. I know that I'm not "fat" because last time I checked, fat people didn't wear a size 4 and wear a size small in shirts (sometimes medium to fit over my boobs). It's okay to have nothing to hold against me and make up shit in your mind. I'm sorry you feel that way...but I WILL be home in May, and quite frankly, I'm not afraid to beat your fucking face in. Actually...I have plenty of friends in Jersey AND Philly who wish to do that on their own, but for some odd reason, I told them not too...You can think you have something with someone, but truth of the matter is that it will never be like what I have with them, nor will you understand it. Also, you wanna talk about the people you "care" about...well I just wanna let you know that you're only fucking up the friendship even more. It has NOTHING to do with my friend, but instead, your actions. SO when things aren't the way they used to be, I hope she give you a great big "THANK YOU", because you deserve it. Get a job you fuckin low life loser...a nose job would do too.

On a different note, I love AB more than anything. Ashley the Cable Girl + Captain Drunk Dialer Morgan = the best summer everrrrr. I cannot wait.

I Hate GA History!!!

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 03:50:14 GMT

So today was pretty good. I woke up and barely had pink eye anymore. I called Jules and talked to her awhile before I went to my first class because for some reason, I woke up before my alarm went off?? Then off to the wonderful world of psychology...then english...

As soon as I got out of that class, I talked to Jules again for close to an hour. We mainly talked about spring break and how interesting it's going to be. We also laughed at our group of friends a lot because they're so damn crazy...

While I was talking to Jules, Kate called, so I called her back once I hung up. No lie, we talked non-stop for an hour 1/2 straight. I couldn't even tell you the last time we did that. Somehow, whenever we talk, we both get delirious and start saying random things, laughing at everything, and in a way, "go after" each other. There were times during my Senior year in high school (Her freshman year in college), where we would talk at like 1am, and we'd just go on and on about the most "recockulous" things. I'd always regret that in the morning, but the laughs I got out of the conversation were definitely worth the lack of sleep. While I was talking to her tonight, she was talking to Nicole online...just about what was going on in each other's lives (simple conversation for the most part). Then Kate somehow convinced Nicole that I was "whoring it up in GA", and that I left her a message saying that I had to go buy a pregnancy test and all this stuff -- none of which was true. Next thing I know, I have Nicole IM-ing me asking me if I was pregnant. Obviously, I denied all false allegations, but because the information was coming from Kate, she believed her because I "tell Kate everything". Once those two stopped talking, I yelled at Kate because everyone was going to start calling to see if I was pregnant...but we really can't take each other serious, so the entire conversation was a big joke. We wound up having to hang up because Kate was trying to eat those Valentine's Day candy hearts with the messages on them, started choking on one from laughing so hard, somehow managed to spit it out, and had no clue where it went. She then went on this 10 minute rampage on how awhile ago, she dropped an M&M and didn't know where it went, then the next day there was a trail of ants leading to it. She said that it would be my fault if she couldn't find the candy and there were ants in the apartment the next day because I "set off vibes that make her delerious". Personally, I just think she's retarded, but it's ok. I'll let her believe what she wants...

Then I took a nice 2 hour nap, which leads me to now. I still do not want to study for my GA History class. I figure I'm just gonna read as much of the two text books we have and just hope for the best. After that class is over...it's the weekend!! YAY! I can't wait for this damn week to get over.

No More Drama...

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 05:55:28 GMT

Alright...so today was a day of improvement. Besides the fact that I woke up with pink eye and thought it was going to be the worst day ever, it actually didn't wind up being all that bad...

I talked to Katie and pretty much fixed everything with her. There are some things that aren't quite agreed on yet, but I luckily got her to realize some stuff. Hopefully things won't come between us again because that wouldn't be cool...

I also talked to AB for the first time in forever. That also made me really happy. She's so sweet and also just lets me go on and on, then gives the best advice. I can't wait until I go back to NJ so I can go to her new appartment and party it up with her...

Then I talked to Lisa, a high school friend who I was never really all that close to. However, I think we're becoming closer now that we're like 9 hours away from each other and don't see each other?? Kinda weird, but I really enjoyed my conversation with her. It made me happy. Her and some of her friends may be taking a road trip down here whenever they get off of soccer, so that should be pretty fun...

Then Alicia called to check up on me to make sure I was alright because of the whole Katie situation from earlier. That made me smile...a lot. I fucking love that girl. She's such an amazing friend and always manages to put a smile on my face...

THEN...I just talked to Laur on the phone for the second night in a row!!! Crazy shit right there! She always keeps me updated on shit, so I enjoy getting the inner scoop of our friends who I don't talk to all that often. I really can't wait til spring break when I see all of them. It's gonna be awesome. Those four girls definitely own my heart...

On a different note...My GA History mid-term is on Thursday. As of now, I don't know shit about it. And quite frankly...I don't feel like studying for it because it's boring as hell. I'd rather go through chemistry again - yea, it's that bad. But anyways...I suppose I should battle the beast and finish up my Pysch paper now...

Starting a LJ

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 02:49:27 GMT

About four years ago, I learned in a very hard way that you should never write anything down that you don't want others to possibly find out. However, I've come to the point where I have so much bottled up inside of me that I feel this is the only way I can get it out when two of my best friends, whom I tell everything, aren't available. I've come to the point where so much is stressing me out, but because of the way I am, I hold everything in to save myself and other people the drama.

For as long as I can remember, I've always had a problem with "weak" people. I suppose this is because when I was younger, I took a lot of things to heart, and always wound up getting hurt by those closest to me. As time progressed, I slowly became numb to more and more things. As a young teenager, I managed to get through A LOT. Those events also made me stronger and more independent from people. However, looking at some of my other friends' teenage years, and even now, I often find myself looking down on them in a way when they could/can not emotionally handle things on their own. For some reason, I was/am completely uncapable of understanding how things that seem so stupid to me could cause someone else to cry and be depressed for days on end. Due to the fact that I don't understand the way that other people handle situations, I would often get annoyed with the endless tears and sad faces. This is also another reason why I hold things in. I don't want to be one of those "weak" people. I don't want someone to look at me and say, "Wow, I can't believe that's upsetting her," or, "What is she crying about?" However, my views and reactions on/to things are beginning to put me in emotional overload. I feel that if I don't start letting things out now, that everything will build up, causing me to someday snap -- most likely be on the wrong person. Because of that, I am mainly using this to be therapeutic to me. I doubt that I'll give anyone any of the information to read it, but if I do, feel lucky -- I'm letting you in...

On a different note, I have to start pre-gaming now for McDonough's. I'm sure I'll be using this a lot because A LOT has been running through my mind lately.